Why do I feel sin more than ever?

 This week, someone texted me a question. “Rhetorical question, if Jesus died for my sin why do I worry about sin more than ever?” It’s a good question. If we believe Christ suffered and died and paid the penalty for our sin, why do I see them more and more? Why do I feel their weight more and more? There are two reasons that stood out to me.

First, the more you understand the cost your savior paid, the more it makes you grieve them more and more. You see the cost that Christ paid, and it moves you. Your sin caused that…in a way, I think it’s a tool God uses to remind you of the gospel. It makes you stare into the suffering of your Lord, and remember what he did on your behalf.

But second, God is also doing something in your life that causes you to see your sin. 

Scripture makes something clear. God doesn’t just save us and leave us. He begins to change us. 2^nd Corinthians states that “we all, with unveiled face, beholding the glory of the Lord, are being transformed into the same image from one degree of glory to another. For this comes from the Lord who is the Spirit” (2 Corinthians 3:18). Romans says that “those whom he foreknew he also predestined to be conformed to the image of his Son, in order that he might be the firstborn among many brothers (Romans 8:29)”

When God calls you, He practically hangs a construction sign in you’re the yard of your life. C.S. Lewis described it this way in Mere Christianity.

“Imagine yourself as a living house. God comes in to rebuild that house. At first, perhaps, you can understand what He is doing. He is getting the drains right and stopping the leaks in the roof and so on; you knew that those jobs needed doing and so you are not surprised. But presently He starts knocking the house about in a way that hurts abominably and does not seem to make any sense. What on earth is He up to? The explanation is that He is building quite a different house from the one you thought of - throwing out a new wing here, putting on an extra floor there, running up towers, making courtyards. You thought you were being made into a decent little cottage: but He is building a palace. He intends to come and live in it Himself.”

Here is the implication of the construction analogy. At the end of the day it comes down to this.  If you are being reshaped into the image of His son, if you are being turned into a castle for him to live in, and if you being remolded and reshaped to love what God loves, and hate what he hates, you will see and hate your sin more and more.